Tuesday, February 5, 2008;
♥ 10:50 PM
it has been quite long since i've posted, miss me?
-.- yeah, sarah again :D
maybe some of you may want to skip this post, but i think that it is necessary for all of u to know about some very major problems with this class and what everyone is feeling and all the shit that are thrown around.
MISUNDERSTANDINGSdon't say, "i say that person buaysong la, don't want talk to him". what attitude? very seh? no, its cowardly. it means that, you DO NOT DARE confront the person. if the person has done smth wrong, why not, let him knw? give him a chance for change? or if you don' tknow why someone's treating you so badly lately, just tell that person.
hello enive, frankness is the key to true friendship. being frank is momentarily hurting, but it helps in the long run. don't you rather hurt your friend for a short while then to let him get hurt in the future? where you can't take it more, burst and never get back together?
and ps./] if you're in the wrong, just apologise. it won't kill to say sorry. it doesn't matter, trust me. i've said it alot of times, to my clique to everyone around me. so what if you feel a little repressed or belittled at that moment? it brings the whole marathon of joy. imagine if you've been with a group of friends for this long alr, then just because of some worthless misunderstanding left unsettled, the vase of friendship shatters, then what's left? nothing. you're on your own again.
maybe sometimes you don't mean the things you do. and sometimes the things you do get misinterpreted by others. so what? leave the dust there for the air to blow it away and lose the strong friendship forever? come on, thats lame. seriously, lame. just THRASH IT OUT. facefront? email? msn? sms? who cares. when you've resolved the matter, just apologise sincerely and everything's back to square one where your friendship just started blossoming.
does it matter losing your face? if your friends are still by your side? no, i don't think so. and what does it mean, saying, "i don't care", when the whole world can tell that you do? it just proves that you're someone who hasn't woken up to the phrase, "true friendship".
maybe at times you feel hurt, or you feel that your friends deserve your isolation or your whatever. but your friends may feel hurt too, they may feel that, "hey, why so and so doesn't want to mix with me anymore." it is truely saddening, although the person may be at fault.
but if no one wants to live up to reality, to know that there IS such a thing is friends, and not friends by desperate measures or friends who i do prj with or friends who i don't exactly care for, then whats the point of even calling them friends? school mates. thats plain english to describe your behaviour. acquaintances. no, not friends.
so think it through, is it worth it, to get so agitated and pissed over something so small that you don't like, then just hit the cold stares with that person? is it worth breaking up with your clique for the little things that happened? is it worth it, by not apologising. is it worth it, by feeling so alone?
FLAMINGi can't say i never flamed before, but i've apologised to whoever i flamed. number one, flaming is wrong, and one can recieve severe punishment for flaming in your blog. whether or not names are mentioned.
but thats not the point that i want to bring across. dont you think that flaming is stupid and just an uproar of angst inside you? we should all try and control and don't hurt any more people with all those despicable words we type, shouldn't we? they just make us, angry, hurt, and alone. don't you all rather if the person who flamed you told you directly to your face how he/she feels about you? then to give the WWW obvious clues on you, then tell them everything of you, they don't have to know. or some personal disputes left unsettled, hanging on the brink of the WWW to let the unknown public jeer at? and enivian against an enivian. family against family. worth it? tell me, how does it feel when your dad flames you on his blog, and one day you meet his colleagues? what is the impression they have of you, even before they've met you?
BONDINGseriously, tell me. do you know everyone in the class well enough? to an extent of what you can compare it to your primary sch clzmates? answer: no. ridiculous ain't not? this is our las yr tgt alr, and we can't appreciate everyone, get to know everyone, see how high their hyper limits can jackpot up to. its abit, unlike a class. don't you think?
i can tell you that maybe more than majority of this class have given up hope on enive bonding anymore. maybe even YOU, who's reading this post now. hopeless cls, how lovely. yada yada, lmao. its not funny.
all of us are suppose to try our best to get to know each other. just initiate a convo, you WON'T DIE, facing a bit of awkwardness would you? its for the benefit of everyone. hello, we're not forcing the blacks to sit with the whites you know? i mean, you may think so and so is a nerd, freak, geek, noob, twit, act cool, pai gia, bootlicker, follower, stubborn, dai pai, vulgar, lian-ed, beng-ed or whatever. but HELLO. are you perfect even? you may think blahblahblah of people, have you thought of how people would think towards you? "i don't care la" yes, obviously thats the kinda reply. its stupid i tell you, just to criticize others with such implicity then for yourself? "yeahlah yeahlah, i know la, i also got problem.. but not like THEM rihgt?" ohplease, don't ever think that way. its disgusting.
if i tell you, we're thinking of a class angel and mortal game. would the whole class compromise, agree and play with enthusiasm? no. :D thats why. there are many interesting ideas all snuck up in our head, with no one blatant enough to vocalise them. why? because the class is a threat. no, im not kidding. the class IS a threat. no one dares. what? comments such as: AA, KPO, guan xian shi, so sian, lame idea whatever. is GIVEN. and they are, HURTING, baituo, would as well tell the person "you're dumb". no deffernce ain't it?
and ps. no one in this class belongs to any tribe or clan that is more over-powered than the other. no one is restricted to make friends with the guys. no one has more say than the other. no one can order people around. no one is dumb. no one is friendless. no one do not care. no one is blinded by all this enivian camaraderie all snugged into this dusty corner of the mt. sinai campus in the 2nd flooor.
so WAKE UP and liveit.
what? "aiyah, this sarah la. some lame paragraph only la. she evrytime like that one." SO? do i care? yes, i do care. about your comments. no one wants to be hated. but the word to use is voicing out my opinions.
how would you like it if i put all this in my own blog and let the entire sch's senoirs, frends of mine view enive as such a class?
ahahha. on a lighter tone, HAPPY CNY! :D
collecting angpows and playing with relatives would be really fun(:
sseeeeeyah back in sch on monday, i hope most of you hv gathered your thoughts,
and know what's the next step(: for a better enive.
andyeah# the cls coomm seeeeks your cooperation in the chalet and many more student initiated fun stuffs coming along(:
yes, you guys are allowed to tag about this post or send an email to
enive07@hotmail.com.
with your problems and some social feuds okaaay?
LOVEEEEE :X
enive IS going to rock. bye.
We colour the skies(:
